2 days before trial UEC

Time keeps walk.....
I only stand there.....
Sometimes i want to fly.It's too hard.
All that i read, i can't memorize it..
All that i practice, i still forget it how to do..
Wad i must do now.
the one who can help me is myself.
However i don't have enough confident for that.
Looking at my friends, they are more clever than me.
I am jealous them (only at studying) for this time.
TT

Mom is busy for relax in Jakarta.
Dad has turned off his phone.
huh...
No one in my family remember me here.
They gather together now in Indonesia..
I feel like abandoned.....(choy....i should not thinking like that)
huahuahuahua.....
When i go back to Indo, they will busy with their activities..
When i can gather together with them and go somewhere we can play and laugh together....
huahuahua...
I miss that time when i was a kid.....
Can i go back to that time?

Farewell for "Dota"

We call xu jian an lao shi as "dota"...
Today i celebrate farewell party for him including jermin, jessi, han. only 4 of us.
At the first, opal n viriya also want to join... however, they suddenly said they couldn't..
I really hate this. B4 that one of them promis us, but suddenly go home with reason " sleepy".
that's really non sense. I hate person who promise but can't done it by herself. how come?
this is only small case, only 1 hours... cann't meh...
Huh.... so tired with person like her.....
If i tell her, she will not accept my advise....
SWT........

Today, i still can't control my emotion. My feeling explode. I want to angry until i want to cry. but i can't cry.
I forgot when i cry for last time...Maybe last year.. yeah.. that's rite... last year....
My tears can't come out easily. I promise that...
I am strong girl....
I only cry only for my family or people i love.......

yeah...
Big girl don't cry

attention... i need it....fren

What is the real meaning of friend?
A lot of people told me of the meaning... there are different with i feeling know....
I feel like stupid people around them.

However one of them make me like her robot...I always beside her when she need friend to share.. 3years already i with her.she still can not read my thinking although i tell her some of my feeling... When there are another friend, she will leave me behind and ignore me... The another friend is always always do everything with herself and only care of herself.

I am not praise my self, but i always tell myself that i live now to serve people around me, give them attention when their sad, accompany them. I am tired already. I tried to stop this "activities" but i feel i am not like my self. Sometimes i also want someone get attention.Who can do that for me?
I also want to share what i am feeling to my friend. But i am not to to express my feeling.10 years later who can be my real friend???

Trial Exam coming soon in this 2 weeks

I still have 2 weeks before trial exam.. I am trying to keep away my laptop from my view.. I think i success ald.. But today, sebastian asked me to check viriya's video... huh... "be tahan liao"... After found it, i stared to find the other think.. the most important is the news about korea... I am crazy of it.. hahaha.....
Now i don't have feeling to exam... how come...???? all my friend start to study hard.... but i don't know they can or not.... hihihi..... However i hope i can get 3B's in my UEC... N my parent no need to spend alot of money for my foundation... Amien

31-08-09

Oh my god....
Today is my last holiday...
I still can not believe it..

Sometime i think about UEC..
I feel i want to skip that time if i have the remote.....
i don't have confidence about it...

what i must to do if i faild?
this question always in my mind..
huh.....
I am tired.....

29 august 2009

I am not nervous about UEC....
I feel everyday is holiday...
I don't have mood to study...
Why and when i become very lazy..
I lost my mind....
This is not me....
Huh...

I am tired..
I need warm hug.....
can u give me???

hehehehehhe.....

I hope there is someone who really understand me and take care of me well...
^^
am i dreaming???

wkk......

I wait for that day when i can see him/her.......

jerejak island

It must be a long time i haven't write in my blog....
At 27st august, i got one day trip with my S3 classmates to jerejak island...
I was raining, we didn't play a lot of game there. However, i like play flying fog there.^^
At that day, jason got accident with chris' car and also after we got our breakfast. I was speechless that time.
Now we try to share to fix it....

That day, i don't know why the atmosphere was weird in my feeling...
I am lonely in the crowded....T.T
People ignore me....T.T
Sometimes i want to show my feeling... but i am not good to show it...
I am useless.....

No..No...No...
I can't think like that...
I must be optimist person..... kyaaaa..... fighting...

To my S3 classmate, please understand me....^^
I only want to make nice memory before we graduate.

When i lost my control, please remind me..
When i am sad, please tell me some joke..
When i am happy, let we laugh together....
I hope i can make perfect memory in my high school time....

^^