1 day b4 trial UEC

1 day before trial, I still went to prangin.
Eitz.. i have reason why i go there. I brought the present for viriya an vincent.
28th sept is their b'day.
huahua....
I have a little jealous.
I only celebrate my b'day at indo.
When i can celebrate it with my friends.
huh.. i think when i celebrate my b'day at indo is a little boring.
Sometimes people around me can forget my b'day.
so sad.....
I hope this year, everybody remember my b'day...
hehehehheehe...........

2 days before trial UEC

Time keeps walk.....
I only stand there.....
Sometimes i want to fly.It's too hard.
All that i read, i can't memorize it..
All that i practice, i still forget it how to do..
Wad i must do now.
the one who can help me is myself.
However i don't have enough confident for that.
Looking at my friends, they are more clever than me.
I am jealous them (only at studying) for this time.
TT

Mom is busy for relax in Jakarta.
Dad has turned off his phone.
huh...
No one in my family remember me here.
They gather together now in Indonesia..
I feel like abandoned.....(choy....i should not thinking like that)
huahuahuahua.....
When i go back to Indo, they will busy with their activities..
When i can gather together with them and go somewhere we can play and laugh together....
huahuahua...
I miss that time when i was a kid.....
Can i go back to that time?

Farewell for "Dota"

We call xu jian an lao shi as "dota"...
Today i celebrate farewell party for him including jermin, jessi, han. only 4 of us.
At the first, opal n viriya also want to join... however, they suddenly said they couldn't..
I really hate this. B4 that one of them promis us, but suddenly go home with reason " sleepy".
that's really non sense. I hate person who promise but can't done it by herself. how come?
this is only small case, only 1 hours... cann't meh...
Huh.... so tired with person like her.....
If i tell her, she will not accept my advise....
SWT........

Today, i still can't control my emotion. My feeling explode. I want to angry until i want to cry. but i can't cry.
I forgot when i cry for last time...Maybe last year.. yeah.. that's rite... last year....
My tears can't come out easily. I promise that...
I am strong girl....
I only cry only for my family or people i love.......

yeah...
Big girl don't cry

attention... i need it....fren

What is the real meaning of friend?
A lot of people told me of the meaning... there are different with i feeling know....
I feel like stupid people around them.

However one of them make me like her robot...I always beside her when she need friend to share.. 3years already i with her.she still can not read my thinking although i tell her some of my feeling... When there are another friend, she will leave me behind and ignore me... The another friend is always always do everything with herself and only care of herself.

I am not praise my self, but i always tell myself that i live now to serve people around me, give them attention when their sad, accompany them. I am tired already. I tried to stop this "activities" but i feel i am not like my self. Sometimes i also want someone get attention.Who can do that for me?
I also want to share what i am feeling to my friend. But i am not to to express my feeling.10 years later who can be my real friend???

Trial Exam coming soon in this 2 weeks

I still have 2 weeks before trial exam.. I am trying to keep away my laptop from my view.. I think i success ald.. But today, sebastian asked me to check viriya's video... huh... "be tahan liao"... After found it, i stared to find the other think.. the most important is the news about korea... I am crazy of it.. hahaha.....
Now i don't have feeling to exam... how come...???? all my friend start to study hard.... but i don't know they can or not.... hihihi..... However i hope i can get 3B's in my UEC... N my parent no need to spend alot of money for my foundation... Amien

31-08-09

Oh my god....
Today is my last holiday...
I still can not believe it..

Sometime i think about UEC..
I feel i want to skip that time if i have the remote.....
i don't have confidence about it...

what i must to do if i faild?
this question always in my mind..
huh.....
I am tired.....

29 august 2009

I am not nervous about UEC....
I feel everyday is holiday...
I don't have mood to study...
Why and when i become very lazy..
I lost my mind....
This is not me....
Huh...

I am tired..
I need warm hug.....
can u give me???

hehehehehhe.....

I hope there is someone who really understand me and take care of me well...
^^
am i dreaming???

wkk......

I wait for that day when i can see him/her.......